sammie, the library assistant

the main purpose of this post is to let you guys know, i finally got a job, working in the public library, as an assistant. 6 days a week, 7-8 hours a day between 9:30am to 7:30pm.

before i can actually work in the library, i have to go thru a week of training which have just started yesterday.

basically, what i have to do are divided into 2 parts: clerical duties & cultural services assistant duties.

clerical duties are something like process application for new library card, lost and replacement of card, provide reservation and inter-library loan service, handle request for back issues of newspaper and periodicals in closed stack, check-in/out library materials in transit from/to other branch libraries, answer readers' inquiries, assist in activities that held in the library, etc.

cultural services assistant duties are something like sorting and shelving of library materials, assist in preparing new library materials for circulation, perform minor repairing of books, preparing current newspapers for display, assist in searching and fetching for library materials when required, patrol and maintain order and tidiness in library area, assist in charging and discharging of library materials, etc.

What's love?

these few years, i always wonder what's love . . . love from your family, love from your friends, love from your lover, from your partner, there are various kinds of love in the world that you should treasure. sometimes, i found it hard to tell whether i really love someone, it is difficult to know if someone actually loves me.

another thing i wanna mention is, even someone truly loves you, he or she may not be able understand your feelings, your thoughts, your needs, and may do something that he and she thinks is good for you but actually hurt you (a lot). as a matter of fact, all of us may have done something like that, even you do not mean to, without notice.

love and beloved, a complicated issue to me . . .

Disease!

Currently, 99% of the Insearch DCN people are suffered from a disease. This disease has totally, at least partly affected people's health, emotion, attendance, punctuality, etc.

I am sorta having this disease as well, but thanks god, only the primary stage of it. Umm ... hopefully, I will not go further than that ... I am sure I can handle it properly.

I am assuming that everybody will recover from this disease within 2 weeks. I wish they will be all great by that time - Full of energy and happy!

Oh, what's the name of this disease? Haven't I mentioned it ... I haven't? Really? Alright, alright, it is called "assignment is due tomorrow"!!!

Annoyed & Scared

my gf is annoyed and scared by s/o today ... oh no!

g = guy, m = my gf

for the annoying bit, it goes like this -

g1: do you just had a fight w/ your best friend?

m: yeh ...

g1: is he in here or back in hk?

m: in hk ...

g1: do you feel sad or angry about it? <-- that's the most annoying part!

m: not really ... as i am sorta prepare for it.

g1: that's good.

m: *sigh*

well, i guess my gf is annoyed as she can't see the point of people asking "do you feel sad or angry about it?" ... she told me, she actually wanted to smack that guy when she heard him saying that. so, to comfort her, i said, "okay, you go to smack him ... and then i will go to ask him if it hurts" ... she just couldn't stop laughing, good!

for the scary bit, it goes like this -

g2 : what's ...?

m: huh?

g2: what's the ... now?

m: huh, huh?

g2: what's the time now?

m: oh ... (look at me), it's ... it's

(i showed her my watch and whispered in cantonese "5:50pm")

m: it's 6 to 5 ... 6 o'clock ...

g2: (caught my gf's arm) thx, thx very much!

we didn't really wait for him to finish saying thanks, we walked away as quick and as far as we could (sounds rude). i was kinda of not sure what'd happend, i did this just because, there's the word "scared" on my gf's face and i could feel that she actually didn't know what she's doing or talking about. but of course, we discussed about it afterwards (sorry, i am not gonna tell you what's it about, as it's a long story).

Hallucination

Every morning, while I am waiting for the train ...
I see her on the platform ...
I am not sure if she is working or studying ...
but one thing for sure ...
No matter what time I take the train, she will be there ...

Well, I guess it is quite normal if I take the same train ...
However, as a matter of fact ...
Usually, I get to the station at 9.15am ...
8.35am, 10.45am, 11.25am, 11.55am sometimes ...

As noticed, although she dressed-up ...
kida differently everyday ...
With various of earrings, shoes ...
Her hairs are always wet and sorta messy ...

Is she real ... or is she part of my imagination? God knows ...
I just need to get some sleep and finish up this post ...

Household ChitChat # 6

hey my dearest, how are you?

oh well, because of the unpeditable weather and lack of sleep, many people in class and teachers are sort of sick. they just keep coughing and sneezing in class, what a pity!

on the other hand, not because of the weather and lack of sleep, michael has been in the hospital for almost 2 weeks. as we heard from dr. mike, he got fluid in his lungs. hmm...as it sounds pretty serious, we do worry about him. hopefully, he will be fine and get well soon. < -- i just think, he should have smoked less -- >

for tomorrow, i am not sure if you guys remember, i got makeup class, from 8:30am to 3:30pm. also, jonny has invited his friends to come over and have a house-warming party.

alrighty, that's all for this week! i will talk to you guys later when i have time. good luck!

love,
sammie

A Paper Clip Will Do

G'day Jill, here is the deal -

I tell you a news,

You pay all my bills

Or buy me 10 litres of milk.

As I showed a great zeal,

And only demanded a few,

I am sure you will,

Agree with the deal.

* Giggle * Giggle *

Okay, here comes the news "Man trading up from paper clip to house". It is about a 26-year-old Canadian guy called Kyle MacDonald who had a red paper clip and a dream: "Could it be possible for me to use the community power of the Internet to barter this paper clip for something better, and trade that thing for something else - and so on and so on until I got a house?"

As you can tell from the headline, he actually started to carry out his plan in last June and close enough to make his dream come true, after a cross-continental trading trek involving a fish-shapen pen, a small ceramic doorknob, a camping stove, a generator, an "instant party package" to a snowmobile.

And then, his "deed" was known by people and was invited onto Canadian television, he was asked if there was anywhere he would not go to trade the snowmobile. He spit it out, "Yahk, a hamlet in the Canadian Rockies."

After that, a snowmobiling magazine dramatically offered him an expense-paid trip to Yahk in exchange for the snowmobile. He did not go for the trip but transferred it to a manager and in return he got a van that had been planning to sell. He then gave the van to a musician that works at a recording studio, arranged a recording contract, with studio and a promise to pitch the finished product to music executives. Later than that, of course, he sold this contract to someone else ... Jody Gnant, a singer in Phoenix who owns a duplex. And that is how Kyle MacDonald has turned a paper clip into a year of shelther for free in Phoenix.

As MacDonald said, he will keep going until he gets his very own home and I guess, he will get there soon, as he actually got an offer from Hollywood studios to turn his story into a film! <-- Huge amount of money is gonna jump into his pocket -->

Well, I am not saying whether you should make an "investment" like MacDonald ... He just gave me an idea on how we can get to success - Set your goal, make it clear, work on it, move towards it bit by bit and surely you will get there at last. For example, there is an 2,500-word essay due in 5 days which seems to be a lot of work ... but if you can find 2 really good references and write 500 words a day, you will be able to finish it on time with 10 references in the bibliography. *Chuckle*

MacDonald's blog - http://oneredpaperclip.blogspot.com/

Daddy is Here!

Just as usual, turn on the computer and read the news on net once I crawled out of my comfy bed. It is kind of relax today, as there is no school ...

Hmm...There is a news with the headline "3-year-old grasses on dad". Grass in here is a verb and means give away information about somebody. And as a matter of fact, this news is about a little girl give away her dad after being told by her parents that she should always be honest.

Dieter Brauer, 33, from Vreden in Germany was hiding from the police after running away when pulled over for speeding. And because the police noted down his number plate, they went to his house to arrest him. While his wife Nina said, her husband was not home, their 3-year-old daughter Hannah interrupted to tell the police "daddy is here" and led them to the cellar where he was hiding.

So, Brauer is now facing charges for speeding and driving with an expired licence. However, he is not angry with Hannah as he understands that she was just doing what they have always told her.

Well, I am not sure about the penality of Brauer, but I think it is good for him for not being ambivalent and sort of setting a "good example" to his daughter - As none　of us is perfect and all of us make mistake sometimes, instead of runny away or ignoring, you will have to face it and learn from it, make sure it will never happen again.

Easter Bunny in Trouble

As a result of public holiday, interesting news actually "read 1 get 1 free". Another news I wanna talk about is "German sues Easter Bunny". Why he does that? Umm...let see!

As reported, a man called Karl-Friedrich Lentze from Berlin, has taken legal action against the Easter Bunny for harming his health severely. He has filed a complaint with prosecutors, blaming Easter Bunny of causing addiction to chocolate which leads to heart attacks, obesity and strokes.

Lentze described Easter Bunny as "a sadistic and unscrupulous offender who preys on people's sweet tooth". He also stated that, "This evil bunny should be found, being handcuffed and removed from shops in time for Easter."

On the other hand, public prosecutor spokesman Christian Avenarius said, "We will act upon the complaint with speed and without laziness."

I found this German ridiculous. Just like the smokers who sue the tobacoo manufactures, for causing them lung cancer and heart disease. It is just totally nonsense. They are adults, they should be responsible for the consequences if they cannot stop eating chocolate or smoking.

Household ChitChat # 5

hello my love, how are you?

while I am talking a break from one assignment to another, i take the chance to have a word with you guys. umm ... all i can say about this week is, work! work! work! all i wanna say about this week is, stress! stress! stress!

hey, tell you something ... i found it quite interesting to see people take turns to fall asleep in class. people are just so tired that, even they are working on an assignment, typing, they fall asleep in front of the computer. sometimes, they fall into deep sleep so quickly that, within a minute, they start to snooze. we won't wake them up and the teacher won't ask us to wake them up, as it is fairly understandable. moreover, usually, they will just sleep for a little while and wake up themselves.

alrighty, as a matter of fact, i do wanna sleep, so ... better go now, back to work. i'll talk to you guys later. okay!

best wishes,
sammie

No More Complaint

well, as everybody knows, i am kinda person that like to complain about having nightmares all the time. but, i guess, from now on, i won't mention a word about them again. never ever. as a matter of fact, i find myself extremely lucky to have dreams, even they are bad. you know what i meant? when you got so much work to do and hardly have time to sleep, dreams won't even exist! so, no more complaint, sammie!

My Angel, I.T.A.L.Y.

If angels really exist in this world, I have a few questions for you to think of. What do you think they are? What do you think they have been doing?

My friend shared a story with me and it begins like this ...

Once upon a time, there was a child ready to be born.

One day the child asked God, "I have heard that you are gonna send me down to the world tomorrow, but how am I gonna live there being so small and helpless?" God replied, "I have chosen an angel to take care of you."

"But" said the child,"here in Heaven I do not have anything else to do but sing and smile." That's what I need to be happy! God said, "Your angel will sing for you everyday. And you will feel your angel's love and be happy."

"And" said the child, "how am I gonna be able to understand when people talk to me, if I do not know the language that they talk?" "That's easy", God said. "Your angel will tell you the most beautiful and sweet words you will ever hear, and with much patience and care, your angel will teach you how to speak".

The child looked up at God saying, "And what am I gonna do when I wanna talk to you?" God smiled at the child saying, "Your angel will place your hands together and will teach you how to pray".

The child said, "I've heard on earth there are bad people. Who will protect me?" God put his arm around the child and said, "Your angel will defend you - even if it means risking life!"

The child looked up at God again saying, "But I will always be sad because I will not see you anymore". "Your angel will always talk to you about me and will teach you the way to come back to me, even though I will always be next to you".

At that moment there was much peace in Heaven, but voices from earth could already be heard. The child in a hurry, asked softly, "Oh God, if I am about to leave now, please tell me my angel's name!" God replied, "Your angel's name is of no importance...just simply call her "MOMMY!"

Surely, my mum is my angel and from the day I come to this world, she actually does far more than what have mentioned above. As a matter of fact, I am such a lucky fellow that she is not the only angel that around me. I believe, my dad, my younger sister and my dear friends...they are all my angels! I truly always love you, my angels :D

Standing For Significant Waistline

Hey guys, have you ever dreamt of having a lecture in a standing-only classroom? Why I ask such a funny question? Just because I read a news on the net with the headline "Standing-only classrooms' could prevent child obesity".

This is about the introduction of classrooms in Britian, where students will have to stand for hours a day, after a study found that in long-term, it could lead to substantial weight loss, as extra calories will be burnt.

I am not sure how many pounds or kilograms can we actually lose if we have classrooms like that, but I am quite certain that many of us will have whatever excuse they can think of, and come to class later or even not coming. It is rather normal, right?

Hmm...besides losing weights, as I am a person that lose concentration easily, I wonder if standing can help my attention span to last for a longer time, or it just make the situation worse.

Anyway, what is your opinion about it? Will you consider of doing it to have a better body shape?

Mummify Yourself

Hey guys, have you ever dreamt of being extremely wealthy, that you can use your money to do whatever "elegant" thing you want? No matter what your answer is, I am gonna tell you a news I read on the net today.

The title of the news is "Fayed to tell the time". It is about the owner of Harrods (Department Store), Mohammed Fayed wants to be mummified, embalmed when he dies and made into the hour hand of the massive timepiece on the roof of his Knightsbridge store.

Does it sound interesting or mad to you? As you can imagine, if Fayer really carries out his plan, he is gonna attached to a rotor and slowly inch around the clock, be used to tell the time for years to come.

Hmm...I am not sure whether I wanna see a dead body when I am trying to tell the time. How about you? What do you think about this idea?

Well, if I ever have a lot of money, I will probably spend it in a way that is "meaningful", which I am still thinking what it can be...haha!

Household ChatChit # 4

hey helen, how are you?

hehe, although i am now in sydney, busily doing assignments for the final semester, i do remember your 26th birthday, hooray!

hmm...so, how's everything going?" i assume that, as a teacher in hong kong, you are working very hard and very very busy. are you planning to go for a holiday in summer vacation or christmas?

as i am not sure, how much i mentioned about my boyfriend last time, i would like to introduce him to you again. his english name is jonathan wu, chinese name is 吳冬聲 (as he borns in winter, in australia). he is 2 years & 4 days older than me. his biological parents are taiwanese and step-father is australian. so, he can speak very good mandarin and of course english.

he is not yet a university graduate. he is now working in a alarm system company as a overnight-shift system controller and seeking a government job. he may continue his studies in part-time mode later on.

we are now living together in an 2-bedroom apartment as flatmates. we share the rental as he pays for most of the bills and i do most of the houseworks. as i mentioned in the last paragraph, he works overnight, usually 9pm - 6am, 4 days a week. so, when he is at work, i will be at home by myself. and, when he comes back from work, i will be in uni. hehe, as a result, we actually do not spend time with each other as often as you think.

um...i think that's about it. again, wish you a happy b'day!

love ,
sammie

Household ChitChat # 3

hola everybody, how are you? *kiss*

hmm...again, i am not sure what to write about, as this week actually pass quickly. although i am suppose to finish at 1pm on tuesday & wednesday, and 5:30pm on thursday & friday, i have so much work to do that i decided to stay at school for a longer time, like until 7 or 8 o'clock. um...not with anybody, only by myself...the reason for that is, i won't lose concentration so easily compare with working at home.

next thing...i finally got my certificate of academic director's merit in hands. well, honestly i am a little bit disappointed about how it looks like...a piece of paper that i can actually print out from a laser jet printer myself. anyway, that's an honour and great encouragement.

another thing, we finally got the magazine that we did in last semester. all of us are really excited as it contains our blood & sweat. i am gonna mail you some of the pages. as you can see, i got 2 articles & 1 haiku published in it. also, i am the layout assistant of it.

hmm...sorry, i am really tired, can't keep writing. i'll talk to you later, alrite? byebye, good nite!

love ,
sammie

Go Away, Nightmare!

Dr. M mentioned that he used to have nightmare once or twice a year, about running away from or chasing by something but could hardly move. he thinks it is quite a horrible experience and seems to be hate it. And I actually have this kind of dream and some other nightmares at least once or twice a week. They included,

(1) bitten or attacked by different kinds of "organism", such as dogs, snakes chicks, sharks, babies, and heads without bodies <-- No pain, no wounds, no blood but rather annoying -->

(2) being run after by teachers in schools, and I have to "fly" to escape and hide <-- Bad student that do not enjoy studies very much -->

(3) forsaken by people that I care about or love <-- Made me really depressed for quite a long time -->

(4) slaugher a person with various ridiculous methods, for example, chop his head off with a CD, use a pillow to make him suffocated, throw him into the fire, etc. <-- If it happens in the real world, I would be a nightmare to the others -->

(5) falling into a extremely deep and dark hole <-- Usually gives me an heart attack and made me hard to breathe --> I remember once, I actually jump off Tsing Ma Bridge in Hong Kong (65m above sea-level, the world's longest suspension bridge which carries road and rail traffic) <-- Terrified experience, scared the shit out of me -->

(6) Cannot find the examination hall or involving time pressure when taking an exam <-- Usually happens before sitting an exam and it made me really panic -->

Although, I have never found myself paralyzed in my dreams, I have to move in slow motion. My psychology teacher in college told me that, it is to protect me from getting hurt. If I do run quickly in my dreams, my body may actually move and bump my limbs against the wall or other furnitures around my bed. Moreover, she explained that dreams are the stories my unconscious narrates as I sleep.

Obviously, according to what i dream of, I am a kind of person that lack of security and certainty, anything can put pressure on me, made me nervous. On the other hand, I am ignoring problems and people that were or are in front of me.

Alrighty, I wish everybody sweet dream and will not have as many nightmares as I am.

Better Life

I just happened to "wake up" in a place I have never been to, a extremely weird place to me, as all I could see...

in here, aside from a machine which is almost 3 times taller than me, are another hundreds set of machines with the same height. "Hello, anybody home?" "The game is over, no more hide and seek!" I am walking around before a little old man suddenly pop up in front of me. *Yell* "What the...!"

"My name is Arvin Infinity, sorry for frightened you, I mean no harm." "You are now in my spaceship. I am a volunteer of The Better Life Association in planet YPU 290. My job is to give a better life to the chosen one on different planets, from different galaxies...and you are one of the lucky fellow. Congratulations!"

"Thanks...but what do you mean by giving me a better life? What are you gonna do on me?" "Hmm...relax, the transformation is a real success, everything is perfectly done! And, I am just gonna send you back home."

"Pardon, an transformation!" "Oui, and I assume that you are delighted about it...as you can no longer feel cold, hunger or pain...and away from any kinds of disease, sorrow or vice. Moreover, your brain is now funtioning as effecient as a computer with as much knowledge as Wikipedia."

"Hang on, Ar..." "Arvin." "Yes Arvin, although it is a great honour to be chosen and as talented as the fellows that introduced the Theory of Relativity and Theory of Evolution, plus that drew the Mona Lisa, plus that invented the Light Bulb. You know, it does not count as better life to me. It is unacceptable to get power by putting my fingers into the socket instead of having food or drinks, have no feelings but all the machinery stuff in my body. I wanna use my own hands, my own potential to create my own future."

"But...but..." "Well, I guess you can choose someone else that would appreciate your kindness or mercy." "But...but...alright, there is no point for me to continue this conversation if you do not wish to. Nevertheless, you can contact us with the device I am gonna give you if you change your mind. You have 604 800 seconds to think about it. After that, you lose the opportunity. Do you understand?" "Sure." "So, may I send you back now?" "Yes, I am ready. However, I want you to know, it is a great pleasure to meet you, Arvin." "Same here, my friend...goodbye!"

That is my choice. How about you? How would you define a better life?

Household ChitChat # 2

hey my dearest, how are you?

wow...another week passed already! well, what've you guys been doing? i hope you are all great~!

okay, i will start to write about my week now. hmm...i don't really wanna mention the assignments that we have to do again. just, we are working against time, but everything should be fine.

last nite, jonny brought me to his uncle & auntie's place to have dinner. their names is yvonne & gilman. actually, i had lunch & dinner with them before. but this time, they introduced themselves to me and it seems to be a little bit more formal.

i am surprised to find that uncle gilman is a jp (justice of peace). i discovered that as jonny got a document that need a jp to sign. so, although i am still not very sure how someone become a jp, i recognise that uncle gilman is a nice & wise man.

and, i think auntie yvonne is a very good person as well. i actually learned something from her. she said, studies is not only about going to school, sitting in class, listening to what the teachers say, copying notes from the board or overhead. how much you spend in school, you should spend same amount of time in doing revision. e.g. on tuesday, i got a 3-hour lecture. so, according to what auntie yvonne said, after class, i'll have to spend another 3 hours on reading the handouts, reference books or something related to the lecture. do you guys agree with it?

the last thing i wanna talk about in here is, jonny may...just may got the chance to work in the airport as an luggage inspector, a person which mickey really hates. you know, when you have something to declare (e.g. dried seafood, tea, lolly), you have to queue up and wait for your turn to be checked by him.

he will be interviewed later on...and if he passed, he will have to go for a body check...and if he passed, he will have to go for a training in May...and if he passed, he will have to start to work from 4am to 9am or 5am to 10am, 4 hours a day, 7 days a week. as a matter of fact, after he worked for 7 days, he will get 3 days off...then worked for 7 days, he will get 4 days off. although he will be paid less, compare with what he is earning now, it's a government job.

he is still planning to study...but it may be a little bit hard if he gets the job. as school starts at 9am and finishes at 4pm. so, he might have to study part-time, at nite, if he really wants to.

and if he gets the job, of course he will quit the one he is doing now.

okay...oh no, i think today is friday...that's why i am writing you guys this email...how silly i am...i better go to bed now...i got school tmr. talk you later!

love,
sammie

I Am 22-Day-Old

Life span means the average or maximum length of time an organism, a material, or an object can be expected to survive or last.

In general, large animals tend to live longer than their smaller relatives as they used up their energy in a slower rate, but there are exceptions. Human is longer-lived than any other mammals. For a human, without any external factor, it is possible for him to live up to 100-120 years old; 3-4 years for a mouse; 70-80 years for an elephant; 130-170 years for a turtle and after a salmon reproducing its offsprings, it dies.

Alrighty, just before you guys fell asleep or swore because of this wearisome introduction with superfluous words and sentences, I better start to tell my story.

I had a thought-provoking dream...I was in an alien place where people are a year older every "day". Well, actually they are not only getting a year or "day" older, they do grow. Explain. They experience the growth of a year in one day, when they are sleeping at night. Explain. A baby there that borns today, will look like a 1-year-old of us the next day. And as a matter of that, if we can live up to 100-year-old, people at that place that only live up to 100-day-old.

What will you do if your life only last for 100 days? For my boyfriend, let me take a wild guess. He will prefer to spend 25 hours on playing RPG. For me, my time will be spend on writing blogs maybe, to keep a record of my life experiences. For the people at that place, they spend their time on having fun and loving each other, as they do not have much time to see their families and friends.

Life is short! Better be organised and act out the most you can.

* Giggle * Chuckle * Giggle *

I just happened to sing in my dream, the children's song "The wheels on the bus go round and round, round and round, round and round..."

Suddenly, my boyfriend appeared in my dream and started to sing "The wheels on the rabbit go round and round, round and round, round and round...". The reason for him to put rabbit in it is, he loves rabbit, he just loves to relate everything to his beloved rabbit puppet. Funny huh!

Then, I thought of something even more interesting and could not stop laughing while I was singing "The rabbit on the wheel goes round and round, round and round, round and round..."

Hmm...I am not gonna describe what the hell is actually going on when the rabbit goes round the wheel of a bicycle, a car, a bus, etc. Just use your imagination!

Oh well, if you found it extremely difficult to do so. I reckon, you should try the Happy Tree Friends which is the most witty but brutal and crimson cartoon I have ever watched.

Household ChitChat # 1

Hello everybody, how are you? Yeah, it's me again!

Well, i wonder what should i write about...hmm, i just got a mission impossible done after struggling for a very long time. What is it? i called the Customer Service Consultant of ANZ Bank.

The voice message apologised for 5 times about keep me waiting, i finally got the chance to talk to an Indian lady, told her that i forgot my password of my Internet Banking and couldn't log on. Then, with her very strong Indian accent, she gave me a temporary code that allows me to log on and type in a new password.

From now on, once again, i can use this Internet Banking to check my balance, my transaction history, transfer my money from one account to another account, pay bills, etc. It's gonna be very convenient.

Okay, it's very late now, i better get some sleep, get energy to face the challenge of tomorrow. Good night!

Love,
Sammie

What's Dream?

To my understanding, dream is a series of images, ideas, emotions, and sensations occurring involuntarily in your mind during certain stage of sleep. Involuntarily, means you can hardly control. As it happens or is done without your control or aware of, you do not have to think about it. I would be really glad if I do not have to care about anything. Just place me in a safe place, feed me and keep me survive!

To my understanding, dream is a state of abstraction, a condition or achievement that is longed for, with wild fancy or hope. Well, I do dream of travelling around in another galaxy and meeting people from different planets, learning about their languages and cultures. I do dream of owning a huge amount of books and free time that allow me to keep reading and reading for days and nights. But then, I will have to dream of myself being bright and sharp enough that can comprehend all the knowledge in those books, no matter what languages do they written in, what subjects are they talking about. As I can imagine, it is gonna be exceptionally beautiful and excellent experience, even you laugh at me, define me as an unrealistic idiot.